Thursday, September 2, 2010
week 32 picture
So...I know I haven't shared a picture in a while, so here you all go. I am not sure how this is supposed to go on for another 2 months! There will be no where for him to go but out! 
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
I guess I forgot
so in the last post, I mentioned our trip down the stairs, but I didn't realize I hadn't written about it. So...Evie had gotten out of bed and came to find me upstairs. In an effort to not wake her up anymore that she already was, I started to carry her down the stairs to her room, without the lights on. Me and my mongo pregnant body slipped on the top stair, and down I went, holding Evie. I held her tight and tried to brace myself in the stairwell, but I slipped down 5 of the stairs, landed hard on my butt, top of my foot, and cut-up my elbow. Evie kind of rolled to the carpeted floor. I didn't want to scare her, but my eyes immediately welled up with tears and my voice was really shaky. Evie asked , "Mumma fall down, Mumma all right?" and I was trying to talk but couldn't really...I just tried to stay really still and see if I could feel anything wrong, like contractions, or leaking or whatever. Thankfully, nothing. I just sat there for a bit and Evie was obviously VERY concerned and went to go get Daddy. Seeing as he was in the garage and she can't open the outer door, she came back to me and tried to help me up. I hobbled over to her bed and laid down. Alan came in shortly after that and when she heard him come in upstairs, she went running to get him. I heard her saying, "Daddy, Mumma fell, hurt." and then they came hurrying downstairs. I let him know we were all fine then burst into tears...I was so scared and shaken up.
I got upstairs with help and put ice on my foot and raised it for the next few hours. Sawyer was almost frantic with activity, which kind of freaked me out, but still no contractions, etc. so I wasn't too worried. I was supposed to go in the next morning for my glucose challenge test anyway, but I called into work, as there was no way I could walk the 1/4 mile from my car to my building and I couldn't really put a shoe on my foot, as even flip flops hurt the top of my foot. I called the Doctor's office as soon as they opened and let them know what happened. They got me in right away with the doctor who'd been subbing for Dr. E. Thank goodness, because they first tried to put me in with Dr. Robertson, who I swear is the most condescending person I've ever had the displeasure of meeting. I think they probably looked in my chart and saw that i have specifically asked to not see her again, unless an emergency.
I went in and Dr. Salas-Myers listened to my belly with the Doppler and made sure I was not having any contractions...She thought I looked good and she was not worried. :) I got my test done and drove home, put my feet up and watched movies for the rest of the day. Sadly, it meant I had to cancel my mani/pedi for the next day, as I could not have anyone touching my foot :P There goes my vanity!
So...My foot is still not right, and I am guessing I had a stress fracture in one of the tarsals, my elbow is finally healing over and the bruise on my right hip/butt is finally gone. I am not holding on to the railing and turning the light on each time I go up or down stairs, too. Who would have thought that your ability to navigate 6 stairs would be impacted?
Oh...my GCT came back fine...no diabetes, in fact, on the low side. Did I mention that I am anemic and had to start iron pills, too? We all, at work, thought it was funny when they called to tell me I had to start supplements, and that maybe I should add more fiber to my diet so I didn't get constipated. I just laughed...I am not sure how I could possibly get more fiber, but I said I would try.
My next appointment is this afternoon (week 32) so I will write more if there is anything to report. LF - out
I got upstairs with help and put ice on my foot and raised it for the next few hours. Sawyer was almost frantic with activity, which kind of freaked me out, but still no contractions, etc. so I wasn't too worried. I was supposed to go in the next morning for my glucose challenge test anyway, but I called into work, as there was no way I could walk the 1/4 mile from my car to my building and I couldn't really put a shoe on my foot, as even flip flops hurt the top of my foot. I called the Doctor's office as soon as they opened and let them know what happened. They got me in right away with the doctor who'd been subbing for Dr. E. Thank goodness, because they first tried to put me in with Dr. Robertson, who I swear is the most condescending person I've ever had the displeasure of meeting. I think they probably looked in my chart and saw that i have specifically asked to not see her again, unless an emergency.
I went in and Dr. Salas-Myers listened to my belly with the Doppler and made sure I was not having any contractions...She thought I looked good and she was not worried. :) I got my test done and drove home, put my feet up and watched movies for the rest of the day. Sadly, it meant I had to cancel my mani/pedi for the next day, as I could not have anyone touching my foot :P There goes my vanity!
So...My foot is still not right, and I am guessing I had a stress fracture in one of the tarsals, my elbow is finally healing over and the bruise on my right hip/butt is finally gone. I am not holding on to the railing and turning the light on each time I go up or down stairs, too. Who would have thought that your ability to navigate 6 stairs would be impacted?
Oh...my GCT came back fine...no diabetes, in fact, on the low side. Did I mention that I am anemic and had to start iron pills, too? We all, at work, thought it was funny when they called to tell me I had to start supplements, and that maybe I should add more fiber to my diet so I didn't get constipated. I just laughed...I am not sure how I could possibly get more fiber, but I said I would try.
My next appointment is this afternoon (week 32) so I will write more if there is anything to report. LF - out
Monday, August 30, 2010
I'm back
I am having a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that I have two whole months, at least, left. I think this second time around is so much harder. I do have Evie, who makes me laugh a lot, and Alan, who I love more than ever, to help me live my life until this little guy comes...But geez, it is taking forever.
I am not really able to get comfortable anymore. like...never. Sawyer is SUPER assertive with the kicking. I remember Evie being VERY busy, but not forceful enough to make me feel like I am being bruised from the inside. I feel like Bella Swan in the last twilight book, like he might just bust some ribs. I had my week 30 appointmnet before we went to Boston, and apparently I measure correctly, and his head is down and fairly low in my pelvis, which explains the constant feeling that I need to pee. I have a few of the newborn diapers and some other things ready to go into the hospital bag, so that makes me excited. I can't wait to just hold him...Yes, he'll be easier to take care of while he is still on the inside, but then, how can I look at that little face and feel his breath against my cheek :)
I just about 10 days ago started to get ankle swelling, and my foot apparently actually sustained some damage in my fall down the stairs (I think I mentioned that, right?) because it feels like I have a hairline fracture, or something on the top of my foot. Speaking of feet...this little gem of a new development really makes me sad. Seda and I were shopping the other day and I was trying on shoes. Time after time, they were not fitting right. I thought it was the swelling, after going to the zoo and Thai/Chinese food, but no...I realized that my left foot, which has always been a teensie bit bigger than my right, is now SIGNIFICANTLY bigger. I am guessing it is a whole half sizer bigger. I am so hoping that my right either gets bigger, too, or the left goes back to normal :(
I was hoping Alan would be able to paint Sawyer's room, since we bought the paint and are all ready to go, but his back went out the other day at the track, so we are kind of at a stand still. I ordered the curtains and rods for the room, so I am just hoping that the room is painted by the time those come. Then to do art for the walls! My fave task!
Maria is coming to visit this weekend, so I think we are all excited about that. Sunflower Farm Kidsfest and whatever else, hopefully to include my new fave...Sweet Action Ice Cream, on Broadway. Fried chicken and Ice Cream could pretty much be all I ate for the next months, and I would be perfectly happy :P
That's about it, because if I write anymore, I will only complain more about how it sucks to be preggers right now. C'mon fall!!! Mumma, out
I am not really able to get comfortable anymore. like...never. Sawyer is SUPER assertive with the kicking. I remember Evie being VERY busy, but not forceful enough to make me feel like I am being bruised from the inside. I feel like Bella Swan in the last twilight book, like he might just bust some ribs. I had my week 30 appointmnet before we went to Boston, and apparently I measure correctly, and his head is down and fairly low in my pelvis, which explains the constant feeling that I need to pee. I have a few of the newborn diapers and some other things ready to go into the hospital bag, so that makes me excited. I can't wait to just hold him...Yes, he'll be easier to take care of while he is still on the inside, but then, how can I look at that little face and feel his breath against my cheek :)
I just about 10 days ago started to get ankle swelling, and my foot apparently actually sustained some damage in my fall down the stairs (I think I mentioned that, right?) because it feels like I have a hairline fracture, or something on the top of my foot. Speaking of feet...this little gem of a new development really makes me sad. Seda and I were shopping the other day and I was trying on shoes. Time after time, they were not fitting right. I thought it was the swelling, after going to the zoo and Thai/Chinese food, but no...I realized that my left foot, which has always been a teensie bit bigger than my right, is now SIGNIFICANTLY bigger. I am guessing it is a whole half sizer bigger. I am so hoping that my right either gets bigger, too, or the left goes back to normal :(
I was hoping Alan would be able to paint Sawyer's room, since we bought the paint and are all ready to go, but his back went out the other day at the track, so we are kind of at a stand still. I ordered the curtains and rods for the room, so I am just hoping that the room is painted by the time those come. Then to do art for the walls! My fave task!
Maria is coming to visit this weekend, so I think we are all excited about that. Sunflower Farm Kidsfest and whatever else, hopefully to include my new fave...Sweet Action Ice Cream, on Broadway. Fried chicken and Ice Cream could pretty much be all I ate for the next months, and I would be perfectly happy :P
That's about it, because if I write anymore, I will only complain more about how it sucks to be preggers right now. C'mon fall!!! Mumma, out
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
tick tock, tick tock...
Huh...I am not sure where I left off last time...
So, I went to the second ultrasound and it didn't look to me like the placenta had moved much away from the cervix, so I was pretty bummed. It looked as though the little man was doing well in there, though, so that was all that mattered. He was being very stubborn so we did not get a lot of good shots of him this time. A few days later, my doctor called and said that he felt like the placenta had moved just enough and that he was not worried at all. Phew...He is a pretty prudent type of guy, so if he is not worried, I am not worried :) Since then, he must have gone off to some other exotic land (he was in Italy last month) so I had to have my 28 week (actually on my 27 week day) with the same substitute doctor. Not really much to report there...She just wanted me to go in for my glucose test, so I guess I will do that this Friday or something.
What else? Well...I was completely engrossed in reading the Twilight Saga, and made it through all four books in 10 days. Not proud, just explains why I have not written in quite some time. That and the new obsession with the Tudors. After I finished with the reading, I began watching at least one episode a night. I am all the way through season 2, so 20 episodes down. Damn Netflix. It will be a good thing, though, when I am up nursing and don't have anything to watch since we canceled our satellite subscription.
Evie is being a full-fledged two-year-old. I love how much she is changing everyday and the new things she comes out with all the time, but the willfullness and attitude I could do without. She is NOT interested in the baby in mommy's belly, but she still seems interested in babies in public, so hopefully that will continue. She has been sleeping in the big girl bed for the last month straight, so that is a relief. No need to buy a new crib. She had her first dentist appointment today and it was really great. She needs to get rid of the nookie really soon, though, so I am a little nervous about that. Otherwise, she did fine and I loved the doctor and the setting. I think she will really like it there over time.
Wow...this is supposed to be a pregnancy blog, but at this point there is really nothing new to report. I have been absolutely ravenous, so that's no good and I am definitely not "cute pregnant," just large pregnant. There is nothing cute about how I look right now, so I am hesitant to share any pictures. I cringe every time I see myself from the side and then immediately think of the 3 months I will have left to get bigger. Yikes. Sciatica is starting to kick in and the sleeping really kind of stinks. I really can't wait to get my body back...I will share the breasts for as long as possible, but the rest I am taking back. I have been really hot and I can't wait to get to New England to at least be near the lake. That should be pretty...bathing suit and me right now doesn't sound like a good mix.
What else? Sawyer Vaughn...that is what we came up with for sure, in case I hadn't shared that previously. Evie and Sawyer. We don't know what to call him for short though, so it will just be the full name, I guess. We think when he is a rebellious teenager that he will tell people, "just call me Saw." Bad Ass. lol
Did I mention that Sandra and Matty are having a girl? So the great baby item swap is about to take place. Maria is coming for Labor Day and she will shuttle much of it back and forth. And Melanie made plans to come November 8-12 or something, so I am hoping I have sprung this kid before then.
All else is good...just living large. Will report more when there is anything to report.
Mumma, Out (It's root beer float time)
So, I went to the second ultrasound and it didn't look to me like the placenta had moved much away from the cervix, so I was pretty bummed. It looked as though the little man was doing well in there, though, so that was all that mattered. He was being very stubborn so we did not get a lot of good shots of him this time. A few days later, my doctor called and said that he felt like the placenta had moved just enough and that he was not worried at all. Phew...He is a pretty prudent type of guy, so if he is not worried, I am not worried :) Since then, he must have gone off to some other exotic land (he was in Italy last month) so I had to have my 28 week (actually on my 27 week day) with the same substitute doctor. Not really much to report there...She just wanted me to go in for my glucose test, so I guess I will do that this Friday or something.
What else? Well...I was completely engrossed in reading the Twilight Saga, and made it through all four books in 10 days. Not proud, just explains why I have not written in quite some time. That and the new obsession with the Tudors. After I finished with the reading, I began watching at least one episode a night. I am all the way through season 2, so 20 episodes down. Damn Netflix. It will be a good thing, though, when I am up nursing and don't have anything to watch since we canceled our satellite subscription.
Evie is being a full-fledged two-year-old. I love how much she is changing everyday and the new things she comes out with all the time, but the willfullness and attitude I could do without. She is NOT interested in the baby in mommy's belly, but she still seems interested in babies in public, so hopefully that will continue. She has been sleeping in the big girl bed for the last month straight, so that is a relief. No need to buy a new crib. She had her first dentist appointment today and it was really great. She needs to get rid of the nookie really soon, though, so I am a little nervous about that. Otherwise, she did fine and I loved the doctor and the setting. I think she will really like it there over time.
Wow...this is supposed to be a pregnancy blog, but at this point there is really nothing new to report. I have been absolutely ravenous, so that's no good and I am definitely not "cute pregnant," just large pregnant. There is nothing cute about how I look right now, so I am hesitant to share any pictures. I cringe every time I see myself from the side and then immediately think of the 3 months I will have left to get bigger. Yikes. Sciatica is starting to kick in and the sleeping really kind of stinks. I really can't wait to get my body back...I will share the breasts for as long as possible, but the rest I am taking back. I have been really hot and I can't wait to get to New England to at least be near the lake. That should be pretty...bathing suit and me right now doesn't sound like a good mix.
What else? Sawyer Vaughn...that is what we came up with for sure, in case I hadn't shared that previously. Evie and Sawyer. We don't know what to call him for short though, so it will just be the full name, I guess. We think when he is a rebellious teenager that he will tell people, "just call me Saw." Bad Ass. lol
Did I mention that Sandra and Matty are having a girl? So the great baby item swap is about to take place. Maria is coming for Labor Day and she will shuttle much of it back and forth. And Melanie made plans to come November 8-12 or something, so I am hoping I have sprung this kid before then.
All else is good...just living large. Will report more when there is anything to report.
Mumma, Out (It's root beer float time)
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
The "boring" phase
I guess I should appreciate this calm before the storm...There really isn't much new to report. It seeps in a little more each day how this new "addition" will change our lives exponentially, rather than additively. I am just enjoying (for the most part) Evie's new discoveries and talents, every day. She astounds me (and infuriates me, sometimes.) Even though there is nothing new going on with the pregnancy, it sure helps pass the time when you have someone else to watch grow.
I had my 24 week appointment last week (at 23 weeks) and boy...was that uneventful. I can honestly say that I was in the building less than 10 minutes. I didn't see my doctor, as he is in Italy, for this visit and the next. I got weighed (which was not divulged to me, thankfully,) peed in a cup, answered the standard questions, "still taking your vitamins, any spotting, feeling baby move?" and they listened and measured. I measured 22.5, so at least I am not overly big. Little dude was seriously all over the place, and the doctor was laughing...I make squirmy ones, apparently. Next visit, I would guess, will be more of the same, although I will have the Ultrasound results to review and should probably be getting a glucose tolerance test at that point. I can't wait till Dr. E. is back, so that I can get a handle on how he is going to do with the new birthing plan. I will attach that, at some point, when I get it fine tuned. I am still working on it, right now.
I am not sure what I think about Yoga. I didn't go back tonight. I am not sure why it seemed to me a good idea, when I KNOW I will never be able to relax in a room of 20 women I don't know, doing things that are pretty uncomfortable. I found a prenatal Yoga DVD that I am going to get instead. I am a better Loner, than group girl. When they had us go around the room first and tell our names, where we were delivering and why we were there, it felt like some kind of 12-step group opener... Me - "My name is Lauri, I am delivering at Avista, and I am here because my doula told me I need to learn to relax." Group - "Hi, Lauri." Not really my bag.
Speaking of Doulas...I have not heard from mine. I guess I am not sure what to expect. I think I will email her after my ultrasound next week. At least that is a good excuse to touch base. I will have a better idea of whether the "low placenta" is really going to stay a marginal previa, or if it gonna get the hell out of the way. I have not had any of the symptoms that I have read accompany a previa, like pressure, spotting...so that is probably a good sign.
All else is good...I will do another belly picture soon enough, although it is a little disheartening how ginormous I feel. You can judge for yourselves. Hope all you reading are well and I will catch you next week, post ultrasound.
(I don't like you)Mumma, Out
I had my 24 week appointment last week (at 23 weeks) and boy...was that uneventful. I can honestly say that I was in the building less than 10 minutes. I didn't see my doctor, as he is in Italy, for this visit and the next. I got weighed (which was not divulged to me, thankfully,) peed in a cup, answered the standard questions, "still taking your vitamins, any spotting, feeling baby move?" and they listened and measured. I measured 22.5, so at least I am not overly big. Little dude was seriously all over the place, and the doctor was laughing...I make squirmy ones, apparently. Next visit, I would guess, will be more of the same, although I will have the Ultrasound results to review and should probably be getting a glucose tolerance test at that point. I can't wait till Dr. E. is back, so that I can get a handle on how he is going to do with the new birthing plan. I will attach that, at some point, when I get it fine tuned. I am still working on it, right now.
I am not sure what I think about Yoga. I didn't go back tonight. I am not sure why it seemed to me a good idea, when I KNOW I will never be able to relax in a room of 20 women I don't know, doing things that are pretty uncomfortable. I found a prenatal Yoga DVD that I am going to get instead. I am a better Loner, than group girl. When they had us go around the room first and tell our names, where we were delivering and why we were there, it felt like some kind of 12-step group opener... Me - "My name is Lauri, I am delivering at Avista, and I am here because my doula told me I need to learn to relax." Group - "Hi, Lauri." Not really my bag.
Speaking of Doulas...I have not heard from mine. I guess I am not sure what to expect. I think I will email her after my ultrasound next week. At least that is a good excuse to touch base. I will have a better idea of whether the "low placenta" is really going to stay a marginal previa, or if it gonna get the hell out of the way. I have not had any of the symptoms that I have read accompany a previa, like pressure, spotting...so that is probably a good sign.
All else is good...I will do another belly picture soon enough, although it is a little disheartening how ginormous I feel. You can judge for yourselves. Hope all you reading are well and I will catch you next week, post ultrasound.
(I don't like you)Mumma, Out
Monday, June 28, 2010
Time to get to nesting
So...we pretty much finished Evie's room this last weekend, and now...lots to do on Little Man's room...Paint, find/sew curtains, sew coordinating pillow for glider, sew stroller blanket, paint artwork for his wall, find a side table, lamp, bookcase...Sheesh. It was hard enough for me to put one kid's room together! Evie's came out really good, though. Now, how to evict her from the nursery. Alan suggested that we move her crib in her big girl room, but I don't know.
I am feeling fine, just a little more tired, so days. I have my next appointment on Thursday for my 23 week appointment. I don't get to see Dr. Ehrenberger, but his associate, for the next two months. It should be fine, but I will just wait to discuss my new, revised birthing plan with him. It won't really be a big deal until we get closer anyway. I was going to go to Prenatal yoga on Wednesday, but I couldn't leave because Riley ran away, and I had to stay with Evie while Alan went out looking for the dummy. He's nice, I am not so sure I would have gone to look for her. I am going to try to go to Yoga this Wednesday, though. I have been practicing relaxation techniques on my drive home. If I can learn to relax my body and mind while sitting on 270...I can relax through anything!
Not much else to report. He is busy in there. Every time I go to Jen D's he does a total 180. He did it to me again on Saturday. It is the weirdest feeling! Andrea was able to feel him though, which is fun. I will update more after our appointment, but I wouldn't expect to have much to report. Pretty routine, I am guessing, other than speculating about the Previa. I won't know anymore on that until the 16th.
Ohhhh...and Sange has her next appointment a week from Tomorrow. THEN she is going to schedule an ultrasound appointment. She is a lot more patient than me. Her oldest friend, Jen, is an ultrasound tech and has all the time in the world to just take a peek. I would not be able to keep from going to see her at work all the time. I really can't wait to know what all the people who are preggers are having...nosy and impatient...bad combo!
I'll check in later this week, unless I have some epiphany. Love to all, Mumma out
I am feeling fine, just a little more tired, so days. I have my next appointment on Thursday for my 23 week appointment. I don't get to see Dr. Ehrenberger, but his associate, for the next two months. It should be fine, but I will just wait to discuss my new, revised birthing plan with him. It won't really be a big deal until we get closer anyway. I was going to go to Prenatal yoga on Wednesday, but I couldn't leave because Riley ran away, and I had to stay with Evie while Alan went out looking for the dummy. He's nice, I am not so sure I would have gone to look for her. I am going to try to go to Yoga this Wednesday, though. I have been practicing relaxation techniques on my drive home. If I can learn to relax my body and mind while sitting on 270...I can relax through anything!
Not much else to report. He is busy in there. Every time I go to Jen D's he does a total 180. He did it to me again on Saturday. It is the weirdest feeling! Andrea was able to feel him though, which is fun. I will update more after our appointment, but I wouldn't expect to have much to report. Pretty routine, I am guessing, other than speculating about the Previa. I won't know anymore on that until the 16th.
Ohhhh...and Sange has her next appointment a week from Tomorrow. THEN she is going to schedule an ultrasound appointment. She is a lot more patient than me. Her oldest friend, Jen, is an ultrasound tech and has all the time in the world to just take a peek. I would not be able to keep from going to see her at work all the time. I really can't wait to know what all the people who are preggers are having...nosy and impatient...bad combo!
I'll check in later this week, unless I have some epiphany. Love to all, Mumma out
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
The Doula
So, we met our prospective Doula, Lisa, tonight. I didn't really know what to expect. To say I am not the world's most touchy-feely person might be an understatement. I am glad that those exact traits are seemingly what makes someone a good Doula. She was very calm and caring and insightful. She is most of the things I am not...what I am lacking. She asked me a lot about what I want to happen differently from last time, what the biggest challenges were for me, and what I am hoping to gain from this.
Firstly...the biggest issue that I had with Evie's birth (and probably in life, in general) was the inability to relax and focus. Lisa asked my what I do to relax, and you could hear *crickets*. I don't relax much, as those who know me best may have guessed. That is my first(self-imposed) assignment...try to find things that will relax me. I will go to Yoga (for the first time ever) on Tuesday, and start there. I will try to become more self aware and quiet. I promise to put aside time for myself to concentrate on breathing, what tension feels like and how to dissipate it. I want to be prepared and not swayed.
I re-read my journal that I did with Evie's birth. The reason they hooked me up to the monitor was not for any reason other than to monitor how labor was progressing, the strength of my contractions, etc. I am changing my birthing plan to adamantly deny this with this birth. Labor will progress how it will progress. They can monitor me intermittently, otherwise, don't fence me in! I am leaning toward not being induced, unless there is a medically necessary reason. If I want the "full experience" that means going into labor spontaneously. The more I think about it, the more I am sure that is what the plan is. Maybe without the induction, they won't have a good reason to hook me up to every monitor in the book, and I can actually practice some coping methods.
That brings me to assignment number 2: Actually immerse myself in pain management, pushing, and relaxation techniques. Plan on a natural birth, believe that I can do it, and prepare for it, the best I can. I, in talking to Lisa, realize that the most compelling reason that I called her is that deep-down I felt like a failure for not being able to give birth to Evie naturally. Why not me? I can do this, and I want support that believes/knows I can do it.
I knew, and was VERY clear, the first time that I was to have no narcotics systemically because I didn't want to dull my senses. What I didn't really think about was the epidural dulling the natural senses that might help me progress...the pain, the urges to move around, change position, to push. I have no delusions...it will hurt, it will be really hard, but I hope I can also say, I did everything I could to get him out on my terms with this equipment I was born with.
These are my intentions, and I am really going to work toward making them happen. Alan is on board, and we are bringing in a professional :) Now...I just hope that my budding idea to not be induced will not sway when I am two weeks overdue ;) and that this placenta previa resolves, so I can carry out my plan.
We are all good, and we are getting closer and closer every day. 4.5 months left...before I know it, 4 months. I want to enjoy this time I have with my girl and man, before the addition arrives. That's all. Nothing more to report pregnancy or baby-wise.
Love, and out- Mumma
Firstly...the biggest issue that I had with Evie's birth (and probably in life, in general) was the inability to relax and focus. Lisa asked my what I do to relax, and you could hear *crickets*. I don't relax much, as those who know me best may have guessed. That is my first(self-imposed) assignment...try to find things that will relax me. I will go to Yoga (for the first time ever) on Tuesday, and start there. I will try to become more self aware and quiet. I promise to put aside time for myself to concentrate on breathing, what tension feels like and how to dissipate it. I want to be prepared and not swayed.
I re-read my journal that I did with Evie's birth. The reason they hooked me up to the monitor was not for any reason other than to monitor how labor was progressing, the strength of my contractions, etc. I am changing my birthing plan to adamantly deny this with this birth. Labor will progress how it will progress. They can monitor me intermittently, otherwise, don't fence me in! I am leaning toward not being induced, unless there is a medically necessary reason. If I want the "full experience" that means going into labor spontaneously. The more I think about it, the more I am sure that is what the plan is. Maybe without the induction, they won't have a good reason to hook me up to every monitor in the book, and I can actually practice some coping methods.
That brings me to assignment number 2: Actually immerse myself in pain management, pushing, and relaxation techniques. Plan on a natural birth, believe that I can do it, and prepare for it, the best I can. I, in talking to Lisa, realize that the most compelling reason that I called her is that deep-down I felt like a failure for not being able to give birth to Evie naturally. Why not me? I can do this, and I want support that believes/knows I can do it.
I knew, and was VERY clear, the first time that I was to have no narcotics systemically because I didn't want to dull my senses. What I didn't really think about was the epidural dulling the natural senses that might help me progress...the pain, the urges to move around, change position, to push. I have no delusions...it will hurt, it will be really hard, but I hope I can also say, I did everything I could to get him out on my terms with this equipment I was born with.
These are my intentions, and I am really going to work toward making them happen. Alan is on board, and we are bringing in a professional :) Now...I just hope that my budding idea to not be induced will not sway when I am two weeks overdue ;) and that this placenta previa resolves, so I can carry out my plan.
We are all good, and we are getting closer and closer every day. 4.5 months left...before I know it, 4 months. I want to enjoy this time I have with my girl and man, before the addition arrives. That's all. Nothing more to report pregnancy or baby-wise.
Love, and out- Mumma
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